Waiting is a form of hurt .

2010-08-20T01:34:00.000-07:00

HONEYYYYYYYYYY(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

2010-07-05T06:06:00.000-07:00

Love has t spring spontaneously form within and it is no way amendable to any form of inner or outer force . Love and coercion can never go together but though love cannot be forced on anyone . It can be awakened in him through love itself . Love is essentially self communicative . Those who do not have those who have it . True love is unconquerable and irresistible , and it goes on gathering power and spreading itself , until eventually it transforms everyone whom it touches .

Life is never easy , we need to go through so many ups and downs . Though god left us with so many mystery , but i believe everything god do has a reason behind it . But i remember someone once told me , though god didn't promise that life is gonna be easy , but god promised that life will be worth it . Though i have so many mystery left , but i can't live my life everyday with mystery . I must live my life happily , as one saying goes , life is short , so cherish everything you've now before everything's too late .

Someone asked me t update my blog as long as telephone wire , so cute hor that girl . After this post , i'm gonna tell her to add money to my salary , and after she add money to my salary , i'm going to buy a new house , only tiffany and michelle know the joke hor , haha . :) Must be happy k , silly girls . ♥

Today no school because youth day ! But tomorrow still need go school . :( boring shit . Hate school so much eh , hope this year faster end then next year don't need study already , happy die me . Few more months only , must tolerate ! Gonna talk to those silly girls and go to bed and have to wake up early in the morning tomorrow for school , boring die me . :(

2010-07-03T02:48:00.000-07:00

In dreams and in love , there are no impossibilities .

Its been long since i last updated this dead blog of mine , hence i decided t update it now . :)

School reopen already , nothing fun at school , facing those stupid teachers everyday .

Won't update that much today , but promise t update some other days . Remember t tag !

All those who keep rushing me t update my blog , you guys better tag me ah . Hehe . :P

K la , update till here , don't know what t update already , nothing t update also .

Sometimes i wonder why god want us t come t this world .

Why must we come t this world and suffer ? I really don't understand .

Why is it that happy moments last for only a while and sadness last for a period of time .

Whhy did god send us t this world ? Study , work , die ?

Why is it that it is always the girls who suffer and not the guys ?

We have no answers .

2010-06-19T22:59:00.000-07:00

HONEYYYYY ! (L)

see i so good help you post blog. you this lazy piggy!
2 month plus never post le.. you piggy ` oinkoink !! hahas :D
meeetup sooon again lehhs! know why? see below!
cause the latest pictures i took with you is that!
VERY LONG LE LEHHS!! you can see too rights?

6 month plussssss ago! =.="

alrights, i have nothing to post le, better meet me up soon & take photo with me hors!!
LoveDieYou larhhs (:

2010-04-06T01:48:00.001-07:00

Back to blogging as i'm really bored right now, and missing baby so much luh . :(
Will only be posting about Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. And, tag more okay. :D

1/4/2010, thursday.
School as per normal. After school, headed home to change with Jiamin and Fanny .
After that cabbed and send Jiamin home while i went to Fanny's house .
Went to 630 to meet up with Jiamin and accompanied Fanny to see doctor .
Headed to trim eyebrow then accompanied Fanny to have her hair cut .
Bused down to northpoint to meet up with Baby, Dane and he's friend .
Slacked awhile then Fanny went off while we bused down to safra .
Baby went to safra with he's friends first while me and jiamin went to have our lunch .
After eating, headed to safra to see them play billard and went off @ around 6 plus .
Accompanied baby and he's friend to 921 to have their dinner .
Baby and he's friend accompanied me to wait for bus, and home sweet home @ 8 .

2/4/2010, friday.
Good friday, so its a public holiday, hence we didn't have school on that day . :D
Meet up with Jiamin and trained down to Jurong east to meet Baby, and he boarded the train .
Trained over to Habourfront , and off to sentosa . Changed and found a spot .
Played volleyball and washed up and everything done @ 4plus. Sorry to kept baby waiting. :(
Trained back to boonlay and jiamin went off first while i went over to baby's house for dinner .
And, home sweet home @ 8plus, baby send me back home, haha, thanks luh . Lub you okay. :D

3/4/2010, saturday.
Woke up watched tv, and Jiamin came to look for me, so i went to bath and prepared myself.
Bused down to northpoint and i trained to meet baby while jiamin went to meet her friend .
Slacked with baby and Jiamin came over at 3plus . Went to jurongpoint to have our lunch .
Send Jiamin to mrt, and slacked with baby till around 5plus and home sweet home @ 6plus .

4/4/2010, sunday.
Woke up prepared and met Jiamin at northpoint then trained down to admaritly .
Help baby to meet he's friend then trained down to meet baby at bukitbatok .
Waited for him more then 10 minutes ! Then trained down to boonlay .
Accompanied him home as he said he wanted to take something .
Bused down to kaypoh to meet he's friend, slacked till 5plus and home sweet home .
Went home changed and went to aunt's house with family to have our dinner .
After that headed down to chongpang for awhile and home sweet home @ 8plus .

What Do Ya Want From Me??????

2010-03-27T19:34:00.000-07:00

9700 dollars and increasing.

2010-03-16T06:09:00.001-07:00

March holidays has started, and when school reopens, there'll be test going on again .
Will only be posting about what happened on saturday, sunday, monday and today .

Saturday,
Woke up bathed and everything, waited for Jiamin to come my house .
Finally she came, followed by Tiffany, prepared and everything then went to meet baby.
Went over to chongpang to meet Dane, then bused down to he's house .
Baby went over to Dane's house while Jiamin, Tiffany and me headed to Tiffany's house .
Waited to Tiffany to prepare then headed down to meet baby and Dane .
Bused down to northpoint, settled down to have our breakfast cum lunch at longjohn .
Bused down to vivo with baby, jiamin, tiffany, dane, benny and me . :>
Went to meet their friend and they bought their things then trained back to yishun .
Headed down to safra and see them played billard, went to 6tou around 7plus .
Had our dinner there and home sweet home at 8.45pm .

Sunday,
Woke up prepared then went to meet Jiamin at northpoint for our breakfast cum lunch .
After that, baby came down to meet me then we trained down to baby's house .
Around 7.30, baby's mother drived us to send baby back, then send me to mrt .
Trained to yishun, and headed to 233 and bought food for family and home sweet home at 9.

Monday,
Woke up prepared and went to meet Jiamin at northpoint for breakfast at longjohn .
Bused down to amk and walked around then bused down to macpherson ite .
Met baby there then bused down to grandlink and played audition for hours .
Trained down to baby's house with Jiamin then home sweet home at around 6plus .

Tuesday,
Woke up prepared then waited for Jiamin to come my house then bused down to chongpang.
Had our breakfast cum lunch then bused back home .
Afternoon, went downstairs to meet Dane with Jiamin then home sweet home at around 4 .

Tomorrow heading down to fetch baby then accompany him to school then to sentosa to meet girlfriends . :>

2010-03-15T03:48:00.000-07:00

hey guys i am jordan,
this is paramore, she is here to sing live on stage to breathe life into this blog.
She is so cool isn't it?

But my girlfriend still the coolest!!! Plus the hottest!!!!
So honoured to take picture with her, LOL. pui arh.

JOKING. hehe.

2010-03-06T18:18:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging already, must come back to keep my blog alive. ^_^
Won't be blogging much, will only be blogging about yesterday only .
Meet up with Gail and Cindy at around 10plus at northpoint for breakfast .
Cindy went off with her boyfriend and Gail's boyfriend came after that .
Jiamin and Felicia came then accompanied Gail to wait for Rosemary to come.
After that headed to meet baby then took bus to pasir ris and went to escape .
Went to play pirate ship first, then to haunted house, then to the don't know what's that called.
Then played the what car thing, baby drived me first then went to the haunted house again.
After that headed to play the spray water thing, only me and baby played. Super funny.
Thought baby was like don't want spray at me, end up is he purposely wanted spray at me.
Thanks leh baby, i know you will be reading this, really thanks a lot hor, thanks !!!!
Then got this small girl keep aiming at us, then me and the little girl keep aiming baby.
After that headed to play the car thing, but this time 1 person 1 car, super funny. LOL!
Only baby and i know the joke, and he has been repeating it from yesterday till now. :>
After that played the wet and wild super funny, like jumping down like that, scary .
Played for 2 times, the second time, Jiamin and Felicia joined us, super funny.
After that headed to sit the ferry thing, then headed to have our dinner at pastaminia .
Settled somethings and Jiamin went off first while we bused back awhile later .
Felicia went off first while i accompanied baby to wait for he's friends to come over .
They came and awhile more i went off already, home sweet home @ 9.45 . :>
Baby, i know you are gonna read this, really thanks a lot for making me so wet, thanks ah!

2010-03-01T05:55:00.000-08:00

Changed msn to l-ovetrap@hotmail.com . :D
Won't be using xiiao_ting@hotmail.com already .

2010-02-28T04:44:00.000-08:00

I'm back to blogging since i haven been updating this blog of mine .
I don't really remember anything but i will roughly elaborate about it .
Only remember what happen on thursday, friday, saturday and today . :D

Thursday,
Woke up and prepared and daddy send me to school as usual .
Had lessons and everything and as usual, its bored during lessons .
But luckily my baby is there to accompany me to message, hehe. :D
After school, headed to 18 chef together with Fanny, Jiamin and Tiffany .
Headed to 202 for awhile and went to meet brother at bk, and back home .

Friday,
Woke up prepared and Felicia cabbed over to fetch me .
After that, went to fetched Fanny and Jiamin and continued over to macritchie.
Had cross country and we were the first few to leave, bused back to yishun .
Mrt-ed to Jurong to meet baby , and saw my cousin , he say he don't recognize me . LOL !
Baby went to book out while Jiamin and i went over to longjohn for our lunch .
Went to baby house with Jiamin and had my bath as i was really sweaty . :x
Slacked till around 6 plus and back home together with Jiamin .

Saturday,
Woke up prepared and cabbed down to school to meet Fanny and Jiamin .
Took the tins for flag day and bused down to 123 to have our breakfast .
Then headed to 174 to meet up with baby, and slacked and they came to my house .
Fanny kept disturbing my brother, and my brother went out soon after that .
Went out at around 11, baby went to meet he's friend while we went back to school .
Headed to school and passed back the tin then bused back with Fanny .
Jiamin went home while Fanny accompanied me down to meet baby and he's friend .
Baby's friend headed home, Fanny headed to meet her mared, while we went to northpoint .
Jiamin came to meet me and baby then headed to jurong and went over had our lunch .
Had a little drinking session with baby, and mrt-ed back home at 7plus .
Alighted at khatib and shocked to see Fanny alighting there too . LOL !
Fanny went home while Baby and i send Jiamin home then we bused down to northpoint .
Help mummy buy lunch and baby accompanied me to wait for bus and he went home .
Baby cabbed down at midnight just to find me, he accompanied to buy water and home .

Today,
Woke up at 11 plus and went out with family for lunch at 4plus .
The weather this few days is fucking hot . !@#$^&*

CPR

2010-02-28T01:03:00.000-08:00

Hello i am jordan, i am keeping this blog alive by doing CPR to it. woah, it looks dead. It must have drown. That lazy bum don't want update ask me update, best lah. LOL, Joking!!!!
You guys continue tagging okay? Don't let it die.

To Bebe:
Forget the unhappy things!
You know i love you right
Must happy happy okay?
From your unluckiest eunuch boyfriend. LOL. joking!

i love NGWANTING 1000 times she love me.

2010-02-22T02:38:00.000-08:00

Hello, i am jordan, and i love MISS NG WAN TING. haha, i know tingting see this confirm happy, lol. don't happy lah you. lol. joking. I LOVE YOU ok? Must be happy happy ok? haha, i don't know what to say le. Byebye, sarang he yo! your kimbun loves you!

Edited :
The guy who posted that was my boyfriend . :>
Gonna update my blog soon, continue tagging people !
And, i love my boyfriend too ~

2010-02-20T01:26:00.000-08:00

HI JORDAN TAN DING XUAN ! ♥

2010-02-10T07:11:00.000-08:00

HI JORDAN TAN DING XUAN ! ♥

No photos to update, the time now is 11pm yet i'm still blogging. LOL!
Gonna go to bed soon, so this post won't be too long.
Woke up prepared and meet Jiamin and Fanny at inter then bused to school.
Lessons and everything, after school stayed back awhile and to northpoint.
Walked around awhile then bused back home and went out again at 6plus.
Meet mummy at northpoint and had our dinner over at kfc, saw brother there too.
Ate and bused down to meet Fanny and went over to study and slacked there.
Bused to 700plus to meet up with brother and he's friend, slacked and went home @ 10pm.

(random post) .
wondering why must there be up and down in lifes.
why can't we just be happy and lead a happy life ?
there's always up and downs in life, but sighs .

2010-02-06T05:30:00.000-08:00

HI JORDAN TAN DING XUAN . :>

Just a short post for today, random picture and so it will be a random post .
Been long since i last updated my blog this days, busy studying and going out .
Won't be updating so often already, but continue to tag okie, i want more tags ~

( Just a random post ) .
Sometimes we will feel so lost when we see the one you love with someone else.
Sometimes we will feel so lost when we don't want to see something happen but it happened.
Sometimes when you want someone back so much, the person is gone.
But when you have already let go, the person would come back to you again.
Sometimes life is just so complicated.

2010-01-29T05:57:00.000-08:00

HI JORDAN TAN DING XUAN .
<3

2010-01-25T05:47:00.000-08:00

Long time no blog already, so decided to come and back my blog alive. ^_^
Don't know what to blog about, tests coming up and everything alr, dam shag .
Lessons was not bad today, time passes quite fast too, but nothing goes in my mind . :x
Got to start studying real hard alr, need to buck up on my studies le .

(random)
sometimes loving someone isn't easy at all, trying to put everything down, but it's hard .
wanted to forget him so much, but those memories keep playing inside my head .
trying my very best to forget everything, and i know i will succeed one day . :)

(L) Huitian !
Here's something for you as you said you wanted it . LOL !
You pig, better meet me up real soon okie, waiting for thursday for you to fetch me.
Don't have 'ahem' then don't have this honey liao leh, hor honey !?
Miss you so much la, love you . :>

2010-01-14T05:04:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging already, because i want to keep my blog alive. ^_^
Woke up at around 5plus prepared and everything then left home at 6.30 with dad.
Bused down to 2tou and went to get daddy's car and he send me to school .
School as usual, i seriously hate maths lesson alot, and i hate the teacher too .
After school, Honey came down to school to fetch me, then bused down to northpoint .
Jiamin went to meet her stead, then after that they came to find us again .
Bused down to 630 there and slacked awhile then had lunch over there then went to 874.
Slacked there till around 5plus and went off already, home sweet home . ^_^

I don't know how to tell you the reason, but all i can tell you is sorry .
I know sometimes a sorry can't cure everything, sighs .
One day you will get to know the reason, but i can't guarantee when .
Thank you for always begin there giving me advices and everything .
Thank you for always begin there when i needed someone to talk to .
Thank you for always cheering me up whenever i felt down .
Thank you for always accompanying on the phone whenever i'm bored .
I really don't know how to thank you, just be happy with your life .
You still have alot of friends who cares for you, don't disappoint them ok .
Whatever happens in future or anything, i won't forget those promises i made to you .
Cheer up . :)

2010-01-12T00:27:00.001-08:00

Currently at kk hospital with some bitches beside me . ^_^
Went school today and lessons were quite fast today uh, hehe .
Went school outside to look for WEIWEI as she didn't come to school .
Talked awhile with benjamin and co, then cabbed down to kk to visit FANFAN .
Fanfan, you said if i come then the hospital will close down, but it didn't, you lied. :(
MINMIN is looking at me blogging right now, super stress de you mei you .
Stop looking already, can anot, stop laughing like one mad women okie .
WEIWEI, MINMIN and me is going off already, hope fanny get well soon . ^_^ .

Tiantian, i miss you, meet you on friday or something okie. Loves.
Fanfan, hope your minor operaion will be successful and come back to school soon okie. :>
Minmin, you stop messaging your baby and come talk to us la, last long with sean ah .
And, weiwei said that she hopes that your eye will grow bigger okie, i wil pray for you too .
Weiwei, you stop laughing already okie, don't keep hehehehe .
And, remember my ringtone is what hor, don't call me in the mrt, or i will xiasuay. :x HAHA.

2010-01-09T20:58:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging already, because i'm so bored right now .
Will be updating my twitter from now on, so remember to follow me on twitter. :>
School reopened already, in the same class as quite a number of people, jokers .
After school, have been going out with Felicia, Fanny, Jiamin and Tiffany .
I didn't forget my beloved honey too, meet her for 3 times this week, haha .
Won't be blogging so often, but will be updating my twitter and remember to tag me okie !

Tiantian ; still miss _______ ah ? Don't miss him already la, find others okie .
There's still alot of better guys out there my dear. I'm sure you will find your guy soon .
And, everytime also i go fetch you from school, when you coming fetch me uh !
Meet you up next week again okie, love honey . :)

Weiwei ; remember what we always tell you, don't cry anymore, you got to be strong .
Remember to laugh like how you always did when we're slacking and even at coffee shop .
Whenever you're sad, Minmin would do her center parting and jokes to make you laugh .
Nothing is impossible, as long as you're willing to give it a try, i'm sure you will succeed .
Since he already no longer love you, you might as well put down everything and move on .
Let the old one go, let the new one step into your heart, old one don't go, new one don't come .
No matter how hard it gonna we, we will be there going through everything with you .
Remember our promises ? 15 december 2010 ? I'm still waiting okie . :>

Minmin ; last long with your boyfriend okie, and i won't forget you pangseh me yesterday .
And next time you come school remember put center parting okie, very chio you know, haha .

Xuexue ; saw that dedication for me at your blog, you also got to be strong okie .
I know that we're drifting apart already, but i'll try my very best to fixed it back to the past .
Nothing is impossible as long as we try. Don't bother about him, forget him and move on .
Though its hard to forget, but still you got to try your very best to forget and move on .
Felicia, Fanny, Jiamin, me, and your love ones would be there supporting you .

Fanfan ; you're not forgotten too okie. Thanks for always begin there .
Tomorrow will be going to visit you already, get well soon and come back to school okie !
Last long with your boyfriend uh .

_______ ; slowly guess who you are barh. Don't ask me who is she/he, because i won't say .
Thanks for always begin there for me, giving me advices and cheering me up and even let me scold you and everything, i don't know how many thank you would be enough, but still thanks.
And, i won't forget how you always pangseh me okie, thank you for always pangseh-ing me.
Get over her/he soon, because her/he doesn't worth your love at all okie, don't sad le, smile .
Find others whom know how to cherish you, you know who i'm refering too right, hehe . :)

Cecilia Lim ; remember what you promise me hor, better don't break your promise okie !

Gail, Yanzhen, Theresa, Kathrine, and alot more others, you guys aren't forgotten too.
Miss you guys alot, meet up soon alright, loves. :>

i thought life would be better without you, but i was wrong.

everyone wanted me to put down, but i really don't have the courage to do so.

telling myself everyday that you won't be back anymore, but ..

pictures of you seems to be running through my mind.

i tried to keep myself busy because i don't want to think of the past again, but i failed.

i thought forgetting you was simple, but as days go by, i realise i was wrong.

it's not easy at all, because you already became someone so important.

but i know, i can't keep on clinging on to you, because you're already attatched.

last long with your girl, and i hope you'll be happy with your life, luvs.

Back.

2009-12-11T23:37:00.000-08:00

Finally came back home already, miss my bed so much, hehe.
I would only be summarizing my trip, because i can't really remember.

Day 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5.

Woke up at 8am prepared everything and parent's friend fetch us to airport.
Had breakfast over there and went to board the plane.
We reached earlier because we took the earlier flight.
Waited for them and cabbed down to our hotel.
Walked around and have our dinner.
Had dinner and back to hotel as the time was quite late alr.
Woke up at around 10plus prepared and went out to walk around.
Went to chinatown and walked around, nothing to buy one, so bored.
Went to shopping center and walked around awhile and had dinner and back to hotel
Slept early because had to wake at 5am the next day.
Went to floating market and walked around.
Sit the boat so fun, but the boat like anytime will over turn, lol.
Went to crocodile farm and walked around.
Went to elephant farm, see the elephant.
Went to crocodile farm, but didn't went in.
Back to hotel rested for awhile and went to shop again.
Woke up at 10plus and went out to shop for awhile and back home.
Slept as i was really tired, and Engsiang woke me up from my sleep.
Accompanied him down to play computer and mother came back.
Slept for awhile more and daddy came back and we went shopping.
Had our dinner and went back to sleep and woke up at 10plus the next day.
Had mac for our breakfast and went to shop with brother, mother and father.
Went over to shopping center and father bought for mother so many clothes.
Joke so much with them, and we laughed so loudly, lols.
Back to hotel and daddy went to another place with he's friend.
Mother went shopping with her friend.
Slept because i was tired and Engsiang woke me up again.
Mother came back and she bought brother to reborn he's hair.
She bring him there and bought lunch for me to eat.
Ate, and she brought me to the shop and did my pedicure and medicure.
Done, mother and me went back to hotel and waited for brother to be back.
He came back then daddy also came back, so went shopping again.
Back to hotel at 11pm.
Woke up at 5plus and prepared everything.
Went to check out and cabbed down to airport.
Check in and everything then boarded the plane and back to singapore.
Cabbed back home and put down everything then went to 123 for lunch.
Back home and here i'm posting my blog.

To Theresa.

2009-12-06T10:59:00.000-08:00

Blurblur, you still remember that when i'm sad, you would always be there.
No matter what time is it, you would still be there cheering me up.
Giving me advices telling me to be strong and all that, but what about you?
I know you love him alot, but now, he no longer love you already, its a fact.
Its reality, no matter how long you try to hide away from it, its already a fact.
I know you aren't feeling good in the inside, you always smile, but not true smile.
I know its hard to forget someone whom you really love, but why not give it a try?
You're always smiling on the outside but hurting in the inside, cheer up dear.
You're crying right now, while i can't do anything, sigh, i want you to be happy..
Whenever i needed you, you're always here, but i can't be with you the next few days.
When i come back, i wanna see a very happy blur, not the fake smile, but the real smile.
I know we're not very close anymore, but still, you need to be happy alright !
I remember how we contact, its because of Michelle's taiji, and you asked if i hated you.
From then on, we chatted and everything, and we became closer and closer.
I know the feeling, i know you wanted him to be back, but you should know its impossible.
Life is like this, there's always up and down in lifes, you need to be strong my dear.
Nothing is impossible, is just whether you want to forget him or not, its your mentality.
You still have alot of people that cares for you, you don't want to see them sad also right?
You need to be strong, let them now that you're fine, so that they would not worry so much.
No matter what i say now, you may think that its nonsense, but i hope this would help you.
no matter where i am, my heart would also be there with you my dear, you need to be strong!
God never said that life was easy, he just promised that it would be worth it, cheer up.
No matter what happens, you need to be strong and face reality.
Your love ones would be prepared to go through everything with you my dear.
Me love you ttm ok! <3

2009-12-06T07:11:00.000-08:00

Gonna update before i go thailand, would only be back on saturday morning.
Today, woke up at 1.30pm, bath and prepared everything then went to Tiffany's house.
Waited for her then went over to 233 and had my lunch over there.
Went to slacked and decided to go over to her house and watch ghost movie.
Watched ' the unborn ' till half then very boring so watched ' liang po po ' so funny.
After that chatted and slept for awhile then she accompany me to down and hsh @ 7.30pm.
Watched tv and used computer till around 9pm and went over to 111 there for dinner.
So long since we last walked together as a family joking with one another, haha.

i hope to recieve your phone call before i go.
but i know its impossible, but i would still wait.
i don't know why you still mean so much to me.
but i know, its time for me to forget everything already.
i'd already did my best to get you back, but failed.
i wouldn't regret giving you up because i know i already did my best.
up till now, still thinking if you would be back, foolish me.
you already have her already, hope you guys last long.
don't treat her bad already, i could see you both still love each other alot.
after all those obstacles, you guys still became together, this is fate. (:
if time could turn back, i would cherish you, but the time wouldn't stop for me.
so i think i should move on already, because we aren't meant to be together.
this would be the last time telling you i love you, so yeah, goodbye.

Shag.

2009-12-03T09:06:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday Gail aiai. :)
I won't be updating my blog already.
Don't bother contacting me already, i wouldn't entertain you guys.
Will be going to Thailand on monday, would only be back on saturday.

fuck love, fuck everything.
i had enough of everything already.
tired of everything, tired of waiting.
everything isn't going the way that i wanted.
you want like who is also your problem le.
i wouldn't care about you already, end everything barh.
no point waiting for you when i know you won't be back.
enough is enough le, very tired already.
after one whole round, the one whom you like is still her.
i'm already left speechless.
you wanna play my feelings right, go ahead.
i wouldn't fucking bother about anything already.
let everything end her, right now.
goodbye.

Heartache

2009-11-30T10:46:00.000-08:00

Happy belated birthday to Tiffany and Yanzhen. (L)

Woke up prepared and used computer till around 3plus then bused to 2tou.
Meet Felicia and Fanny and went to 293 to pass Daddy's friend something.
Bused down to meet Kathrine at mrt there, then bused down to causeway.
Slacked there and she went to center first while i went to meet Theresa at mac.
Sat down and chatted till around 7pm, cab down to center to meet up with Kathrine.
Slacked there awhile and we both cabbed down to yishun, she went to meet her friend while i went to meet Fanny and Felicia, they came up the cab and we went to seletar.
The sea breeze was dam relaxing, super cold and the scenery was super chio.
After that, cabbed down to broadway to eat and bused down to northpoint.
Bused back home @ 10pm.

Dedications below. (:

Brother, thanks for begin there for me, telling me what's right and what's wrong.
Guiding me telling me who is true to me and who is not true to me.
Though we do quarrel at times, but you know you still mean alot to me.
Whenever i don't have money, you're always the one who give me money.
Whenever i'm hungry, you would always make the effort to bring me out to eat.
Though i always made you, daddy and mummy upset, but you guys never even scolded me.
You guys always care for me and give in to me even though i'm in the wrong.
Whenever i wanted to buy something, you guys would always give me the money to buy.
Though you always make fun of me saying about him, i know you don't mean it.
Yesterday when you both broke up, i can sense that you're upset though you didn't say.
Brother, please be happy, because without you, i wouldn't be who i am today, thank you so much. ♥

Daddy, i know you dote on me more then how much you dote korkor.
I know you want me to be a good girl, i promise to be a good girl from now onwards.
Whenever i told you i want to buy something, you would always buy for me no matter what.
I know you don't want me to be led astray, so you always give me whatever i wanted.
I know that day when that thing happened, you were very upset and angry with me.
I know you want me to study hard is for my own future.
I know you always give in to me because you wanted me to be a good girl.
I know you always give me money because you wanted me to have everything i want.
I know you always cared for me though sometimes you do scold me.
Whenever i told you i wanted something, you would always agree to everything that i say.
Never once did you disagree, because you wanted me to have everything that i want.
Daddy, thank you so much, i love you. ♥

Mummy, though i know you always scold me because you wanted me to be a good girl.
You always nag at me because you wanted me to know what's right and what's wrong.
Though you would always nag at me for every little thing i do, but you do care for me.
I don't care what others think of you, because to me, you're the world greatest mummy.
If it wasn't you who brought me into this world, i wouldn't be here typing all this things now.
I know i always talked back to you, but i really don't mean to talk back to you.
You would always save those good things for me and brother, and not for yourself.
You always scared that we would be hungry, so you always eat less and let us eat more.
You would always save the money to buy things for us, and not buying anything for yourself.
Though we don't say it out, that doesn't mean we don't know, because we do feel it.
Thanks for everything that you have given me, i love you. ♥

Do you know how much its hurting inside?
Do you know how much i'm missing you?
Do you know how much i loved you?
Do you know how hard it is to forget you?
Do you know how much i wanted you to be back?
Do you know how much i wished that you were here with me right now?
Do you know how i wished that i could receive a call from you right now?
Do you still remember what you promised me?
I longed to tell you how much i loved you,
I longed to tell you how much i missed you,
I longed to tell you how much you meant to me.
Perhaps all along you were just treating me as a spare tyre,
but perhaps you really did loved me,
i don't know, and i don't want to know the answer.
Hoping and hoping that you would be back, but sigh.
You will never be back anymore, right?
Have i wasted these 12 months waiting for you?
But let me tell you, i never regret loving you at all.
Though i always said i hated you, but i never hate you before.
I'll forget those hurts that you left behind, but i wouldn't forget you.
Because you once stands a very important place inside my heart.
I'll leave those memories which we once shared deep down inside my heart.
Hate that i love you, goodbye.

2009-11-26T03:21:00.000-08:00

Currently at honey's house posting, i'm super bored right now.
Woke up at 1.30pm, used computer and everything, prepared and went out at 4.30pm.
Meet Fanny at interchange and went to food court to have our lunch.
Cab back to her house and i actually wanted to go 6tou, but saw honey.
Slacked with her and one of her friend, and she went to grandmother's house for her dinner.
Wait for her for around 10 minutes and came to her house already.
Going home at around 9plus i think, so boredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.
Going drinking with my love ones on friday, can't wait till friday. :P

Shag.

2009-11-24T14:19:00.000-08:00

The time now is 6.20am in the morning and i'm here posting, didn't slept for the whole day.
I'm super tired but i'm going out at 12.30pm later on to Baby's house with Jiamin and Gavin.
I scared i couldn't wake up on time, because if i sleep now, i would wake up at 4pm.
So i decided not sleep, i'm really dead beat after cycling around 8tou and 4tou, tired. ):
Woke up at around 11pm, prepared and everything then meet Jiamin at 1pm.
Bused down to Baby's house with Jiamin, and Gavin was there too.
Jiamin went off at around 2pm, while Gavin went home to bath and i used Baby's computer.
Gavin came up and Baby went to bath then we bused down to inter and we went different ways.
Reached home at around 4 - 5pm, then slept for awhile and my stomach pain till like wtf? :x
Woke up and talked on phone with Jiamin and online, chatted and watched tv.
Brother and Miner came home, played majong for 1 round, then mother came home already.
Ate my breakfast + lunch + dinner, continue using computer and went out at around 11.30pm.
Went to Tiffany's house and bought her ice cream, and i wished her happy birthday at 12am. :)
Went back home used computer and went out with brother at around 3am, went to meet Miner.
They run while i cycled, then walked together with them and sit down chat till 5.15am and home.
Bath and everything and now using computer, i wanna sleep, so tireddddddddddddddd.

Sick.

2009-11-21T21:33:00.000-08:00

Just came back home from having breakfast/ lunch with daddy. :)
Yesterday, went out at around 1.30pm and meet up with Jiamin at northpoint.
Had lunch over at pastamania, she had bake rice and pizza, while i only eat pizza.
Walked around northpoint for awhile and bused down to Safra.
Went to arcade and saw Gavin there, played games and computer till around 6+pm.
Took bus down to Tiffany's house downstairs there to meet up with her.
Went to buy bubble tea and down to 243 there to sit down to watch the lion dance.
Saw Zhihui, Nicholas and Kathrine there too, chatted for awhile, went home at 9.45pm.
Not going out today, just finish eating medicine, going to bed soon already.

Nobody

2009-11-20T09:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, woke up at around 1pm, used computer and everything and went out at 3plus.
Went to chongpang to had my another phone repair, than bus down to interchange.
Meet up with Jiamin and went to buy tickets for 2012, than went to longjohn for lunch.
Eat finish already, walked around northpoint and went in for movie till around 7.30pm.
Bused down to Chambers there and slacked there with Jiamin and Gavin came after that.
Slacked and everything than bused back home at around 9pm, and home sweet home.
Today, woke up at 2.30pm and used computer all the way till now, lols !

Way back.

2009-11-17T12:33:00.000-08:00

Back to posting and the time now is 4.33am in the morning.
Waiting for someone to finish play dota than will go to bed already, tired sia. :x
Woke up at around 11.30pm by someone's message.
Use computer and everything than watched Hi My Sweetheart and Grape Vineyard.

I like Hi My Sweetheart more, the Liang Zhi Qiang hair is super chio one loh, haha. :)

Finish watching Where Got Ghost also, that show not that nice, quite boring.
Watch Hi My Sweetheart episode 3 until half than very lag, so decided not to watch.
Restart computer and Miner used my computer to watch ko3 i think? Lol.
Prepare and everything and went out for lunch with Miner and brother at around 3pm.
Bused down to 732 to eat and brother went home first while i send Miner to mrt.
Bused back home after that, came home used computer and everything and went out at 6pm.
Bused down to Jiamin's house downstairs to meet her, as she couldn't come out.
Slacked and chatted till around 8.30pm and she need to go home already, so i bused home.
Took one big round of 811 and one big round of 812 as i don't feel like going home so early.
Came home and brother ask me to accompany him over to chongpang to have he's dinner.
So he longbang me to chongpang and went to have kfc for our dinner, hsh after that. :)

Fall

2009-11-11T06:57:00.000-08:00

Long time since i've last updated my blog, i'll try to update my blog more often.
6 november:
Woke up prepared and everything, Jiamin cab to my house and we cab to meet Tiffany.
Bought biscuits and drinks and we bused down to interchange to meet up with Shihui and Welicia.
Bused down to Vivo and had our lunch over there, Gavin came after that.
Bought tickets and went in to sentosa, Shihui went down to play with the water first.
While Tiffany, Welicia and me went to change and went down and accompany Shihui.
Played till around 3plus and went to wash up and i saw Daddy so called him.
He was beside the bus and they kept waving to Daddy, so funny la. LOL!
Gavin and Shihui mrt-ed back, while Tiffany, Jiamin, Welicia and me cab to causeway.
Tiffany, Jiamin and me went to causeway to eat pizzahut, while Welicia went home.
Had our dinner over there, Jiamin and Tiffany cabbed me home while they went to northpoint.
10 november:
Woke up prepared and everything than bused down to interchange to meet Jiamin and Tiffany.
Had our lunch over at longjohn, and bused down to safra after that.
Went to arcade and played ddr, and we saw a group of girls, dam funny sia. LOL!
3pm, went to ktv and sing sang sung till 7pm and walked to 418 and slacked there.
Went to 2tou pasar malam, bought shark fin soup and went to Tiffany's block to slack.
Bused home with Jiamin at 9plus, home sweet home after that.

Regrets

2009-10-07T03:18:00.001-07:00

Meet Jiamin at around 7plus, i was late for around 10 - 15 minutes. X:
After that, went to 925 for breakfast than studied awhile than bus down to school.
Studied awhile Shihui came, than Tiffany came than studied awhile than went to hall.
Had science paper till 11.10pm? than went down for break, and studied for literature.
Had literature paper till around 1.40pm, than went to 4tou Jiamin, Shihui & Welica.
Bused down to northpoint and meet up with Tiffany inside the bus, jokes and laughters.
Jiamin, Tiffany & Welicia came to my house, intend to study but jokes and laughters again.
Around 5pm, they accompanied me down to buy somethings than they went home alr.

Shaun, after all this twist and turns, you and her still became together.
Though i aren't your anyone alr, but still i wish that you could be happy.
This 5 months when i waited for you, i know you wouldn't be back alr, but still ..
Perhaps all this were meant to be, all i wanted was you to be happy.
Perhaps when i aren't by your side, you would be happier.
All this were meant to be perhaps, i still have alot of questions left for you to answer.
But now, i think i don't need the answers alr, because i alr knew the answer.
Thanks for all those memories that you've left behind, goodbye. ):

Saturday & sunday.

2009-10-04T03:57:00.000-07:00

Shifted back to blogger alr, don't understand onsugar at all. LOL! I don't know what to post, but i'll post what happened on saturday. (:
Saturday:
Woke up at around 10plus and used computer till around 12plus.
Prepared and everything than meet Jiamin inside bus at around 1plus going 2pm.
Went to mac to study for awhile than walked around and decide to play candles.
Went to brought candles and fireworks than went to my house there to play.
Played till around 5plus than went back home alr.
Came home used computer than went out at around 9plus to meet Tiffany and Cheryl.
Slacked around and decided to go 233 and had a girls talk over there.
They accompanied me to wait for cab and home sweet home at 11.45pm. (:
Sunday:
Woke up at around 4pm as last night i slept at 1am. LOL!
Daddy cooked porridge for me to eat than watched tv and used computer.
Going out for dinner with family later at around 9plus i think? ^^